This morning, I slept in later than usual.
I don’t really know why. I didn’t go to bed especially late.
Perhaps it was because Jon wasn’t home, so the alarm that wakes him up for work didn’t alert me that it was the start of a new day.
Or it could have been because I felt so warm in my bed on this rather chilly morning. I hate to say it but Jon is a blanket hog. He likes to roll up in the covers, leaving me on a sliver of blanket to keep me warm. In spite of this, I love the man. I’d rather have him home stealing my blankets than anywhere else. And yet, I can’t help but admit that being toasty encouraged me to stay put in my bed this morning.
Maybe it was the fact that I don’t have to get up to take care of babies anymore. The foster babies always woke up around 6:30 am. They did not believe in sleeping in late, and always demanded in that baby sort of way that I get up and feed them breakfast straight away. Now that they are no longer living with us, the five tweens and teens certainly don’t rush to get out of bed unless, of course, I roust them out.
So, I slept in.
In fact, I stayed in bed so long that eventually I couldn’t sleep anymore. I was completely awake and yet I didn’t really feel like getting out of bed either. It felt so good to be snuggled under all the covers, toasty and warm. The dog was nestled against me, perfectly content to continue to sleep next to my side. I hated the thought of disturbing him.
And so I picked up my cell phone. I played a little Trivia Crack, read a couple of emails, but mostly I cruised along my Facebook newsfeed.
It wasn’t long before I came across a video of snippets from the Carol Burnett Show. Tim Conway, Carol Burnett, Vicki Lawrence, Harvey Korman. I couldn’t help but press the play button. Soon I had tears streaming down my cheeks from laughing so hard.
And, by the time the video had ended, I had tears of grief mingled in as well. Tears because I missed my dad and in that moment all I wanted was to share this video with him and hear his wonderful laugh.
Grief is an odd thing to experience. As the months go by, the ache in my heart seems to grow stronger. Some days I just miss the sound of his voice on the other end of the phone. Other days I miss knowing he is in Harrisonburg and that if I needed him, he would come to me within a couple of hours.
Today, I am missing Dad’s laugh. As I watched the antics of Tim and Harvey, Carol and Vicki, it was as if I could nearly hear him laughing along with me, tears streaming down his cheeks too.
So, in honor of my dad, here’s a laugh for you today.
A joyful heart is good medicine. ~Proverbs 17:22
11 thoughts on “Laughing and Crying … and Missing My Dad”
It is funny how grief can overwhelm us at times, the sweet and bittersweet.
Very much so … and so often I am caught off-guard by the thing that sets it off.
Paige, I can understand. God’s Blessings!
Your dad had a good sense of humor. Good post my dear.
Thanks, Jon … and Dad did have a fantastic sense of humor. One of his best qualities.
<> My mom’s was the I Love Lucy show!
I love Lucy too!
For you right now it’s your Dad that has come to mind and you’re missing so for his qualities and especially his humor, for me from time to time I have those times thinking of my Mother. They made such an impact on our lives, I would suppose that is the reason… Diane
I would agree, Mrs. Diane. The bigger the impact the more we think of them, I suppose. One of the costs of loving, but definitely worth the price we pay. 🙂
I think laughter is a wonderful way to remember someone special to us… thanks for a great post!
It is a wonderful way to remember a loved one. And perhaps one of my favorite things about my father was his laugh, and how much he loved laughing.